Reality Of Dirt

     One of the scariest things in life is the fact that male and female, female and male, are just parts of a totality.  Imagine something that is truly both, encompassing both those forces...it is good survival instinct to fear something like that...these two forces are not really measureable or even fathomable, but definitely noticeable, observable, obvious forces of nature, forces of and within the alive totality.  And there are other forces like male female that are part of the totality, though otherwise unrelated to male female, truly alien forces, from other places, but only alien to us, not alien to the thing they too are just a part of.  Being conscious willful and intent opens many doors.  Shouldn't you be able to render information from the alien?  And in the process you would become more aware of the totality, a little better informed about what Nature really means.
     Anything that was still is somewhere, so what about the myriad forces of nature that were and still are, somewhere?  There are many orders and energies and forces that are not only unexploited but still unknown.  The matrices of reflection outward that everything eventually becomes mean our personal pasts are very real ghosts already, ghosts that are  all the more alive because we are still attached to them as living organisms, as engines.
      For Now.
      It is all a reflection outward forever, its done, but it may be visited, in more than one way, too.  Memories are the inner matrix of light and its forever reflections, one more part of the multiverse, and a very necessary part, even key.   

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     It is one of my many duties here to undermine and try to destroy the evil of the spectacle.  All you can take from here is what you learn. The defining of what you learn by a chosen few for profits is evil and backwards.  It is not just a self imposed job, this.  I and I, and I and I, where we live there are many levels, many dimensions.  We are one but we are many, alive in many different places at once.  There is always more at stake than appears, because appearances are incomplete, and easily corrupted into some kind of spectacle for profit.
     This is of course how one binds demons.  Its like the old pirate said:
     "Oh, you don't believe in ghost stories?  Well ya' better start believin', 'cause you're in one..."
     What we do, everything alive, is surf the moments.  We embrace the next, we liaise the present, we are the coming, the growing, the evolving, physically self assembling every single breath, we skateboard downhill into and around the steep bowl of Now.  The rules are simple.  You fall you die.  Happens all the time.  Eventually everyone falls.  So enjoy the ride at least.

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    The demons of the American southwest are very old, some are even older than this planet, but like everything else demons age, and though it is a slow thing, a certain vitality is lost over time, if the demon is not able to replenish itself somehow.  Demons that replenish themselves usually do it at the expense of something else, something alive or was alive, hence the bad image of demons and all that.  Only the vampiric demons use other life for their own ends though, and most demons actually die natural deaths after existences measured in centuries, millenia, eons.   What people would consider to be very very long lengths of time.  By binding a demon one may even prolong its effective existence, throwing it into a stasis that is nearly indefinite, like a virus crystal.  If the binding ever breaks or is worn away, then the demon could revive itself and perhaps even be stronger.  Also it has been seen that some demonic forces of the more ethereal types actually thrive on certain kinds of electricity.  Replenishment of those forces can and does take place on a regular basis, though they are the ants of the demon kingdom, these forces, following simple programs allowing only a vestige of self awareness.
     There are also demons here that are very young, just born, although that means so much more than you can imagine that it is not really an apt description.  Suffice to say that light being the finest derivation of matter possible, the reflections, refractions, bendings and twistings which occur are nearly infinite but still in possession of high order.  Order is what its all about.  How well can you hold your order?  Are you a member of physical reality, anchored to the now by your flesh?  Well, so far so good, but try to hold that order for any length of time, can't be done, only the cycles matter then, and its back for another round including childhood which is a pita anywhere you go.  
       Or are you a a spirit type, possessed of order from somewhere else, another flesh perhaps, anchored somewhere else?  Well?   The dimensions are many and relatively open to authorship if one puts ones mind to it.  Others, like me, are not so intent on authorship as we are the learning which occurs as a  by-product of existence.  You can really crank that up, too, if you have any idea what is really going on here.